double -ing

i'm still
thinking thinking, of you each day
waiting waiting, but you never came
hurting hurting, but i shall be strong
hoping hoping, you'll come to me again

i'm secretly
wishing wishing, you're not like what they say
recalling recalling, the things that you've done
begging begging, you don't fool with my heart

i'll be disappointed or angry or both, i don't know
but once broken, never the same again.